i'm on that NEW.NEW.ISH...New Jersey....I went for my dad's promotion ceremony. It was the first time I'd been with my boys [daddy.bros] in a while. My dad showed me how perseverance and hard work pays off. He had tried out for the position for four years and prior it wasn't that he wasn't qualified..just that others were more qualified. He could have easily took that lying down, but he kept trying and it brought my heart JOY to see him happy.
this place is for lovers...Virginia...home sweet home...or is it? Well considering my family doesn't live there anymore it felt like visiting. I also realized since I didn't have a car this time who my real friends were. Not for giving me rides [that's lame] but those from HS who truly made an effort to see me and wanted to meet up. I'm SO grateful for those friends. I saw my baby sis lytia renise johnson graduate from high school. I felt as if my own child had graduated. baby girl is all grown. I saw the progress that some from HS made [bro rico having a baby.nick going to NY.shayla is pres if her university.tiana marie is grinding. the besties got into their prospective soriorites oo-oop@ www.lifendared.blogspot.com] and some others have not [still partying at the same clubs every weekend.still NOT going to school.and being complacent] Don't get me wrong school isn't for everyone but SOMETHING has to be. I am SO thankful that I am in college, working, and achieving. I realized how important those things are while in VA.
we are family....i got all my [aunts&cousins] with me...FT.LAUDERDALE...every year the women on my mother's side her sisters and nieces...and my aunts and cousins go on a trip. This was SO relaxing and fun! I hardly ever get to spend time with this part of my family. My mother & I had a real heart2heart and I realized that all of the problems we had were misunderstandings. Years of arguments, tears, and hard feelings over NOTHING. She just wants me to need her more...I told her that I handle my issues alone..it's not as if I'm going to another motherly figure. I told her she should be happy that I don't NEED her...I'm 21...so that means she's done her job.
where stars are born.....CALI-FOR-NI-A! This is where I completed my second internship for SBI. This time I was at FX Entertainment. I absolutely love the lifestyle out here...every one is a hustler.driven.concerned with their health.open-minded.and free-spirited! this experience has inspired me to want SO MUCH MORE out of life! I realized that I can live far away from comfort. I used to think that I needed at least a few peers around. I met other ppl out here..linked up with sorors and really enjoyed the experience. Living with my aunt I realized how much patience I have with life. It's just so much easier to say "ok" and not get upset...takes extra muscles to frown and getting mad takes too much energy. I spent a lot of time thinking about what I want out of life. in a MAN. from myself! So peaceful! Just me. the great scenery. and my thoughts. I needed the time away from it all just to deal with Gloria. She and I had a disconnect and I didn't realize it until I could hear my own thoughts. I really enjoyed it. I realize that sometimes I put my all into some and they only put 26% into me...whether it be friendships.relationships.partnerships. I also came to the conclusion that it'll probably never change. This is who I am. I'm caring and giving so I won't change, but what will is the people receiving the generosity. The first summer in a while where I wasn't involved with a guy whether it be in a relationship.building one.leaving one. & it felt GREAT! I will return to Fall semester tomorrow with an open mind.heart. open canvas. It'll be exciting and I CAN'T wait!
i want so much outta life....i put so much into life....one day it'll be reciprocated....
signed
SimplyGEE
